I'm getting a little worried about my writing. Life has been so busy this last year, and it's only going to get worse. I'm applying for jobs at the moment which doesn't leave me with a lot of free time. If all goes well and I get a job for next year (my first teaching job! Hurrah!) I'm going to be too busy to write, I think. Everyone says that the first year of teaching is completely overwhelming and exhausting.

That will be sad in and of itself - I love writing, love love love it and I need a creative outlet to keep me sane. But it will also suck because I really want to finish Moving On; I hate not finishing something once I start it, and I'll feel like I've let people down if I don't continue with it. I think the only answer is to work really fucking hard on it for a few weeks this summer, and get it done then. Even if it's not the best I've ever written, even if it doesn't live up to my expectations (and it hasn't so far anyway, because I'm a mad perfectionist), that will be better than never finishing.

Fuck this story has taken a long time. I started it a year and a half ago. Crazy. At least the end is kind of in sight now.

But yeah, I think I probably won't be writing a whole lot for the next few weeks, because job applications really do take precedence at the moment. We'll see. Actually I might just end up writing heaps as a form of procrastination.

I finally saw the filmed Broadway performance of Rent. It was beautiful. I realise now why everyone says the stage musical is better than the film. The film seems ... plastic, now in comparison. I guess they had to get it past the censors - and I remember Chris Columbus saying that they worked really hard to get a PG rating for it - but it just isn't the same as the stage version.

Eden fucking Espinosa - I am so in love with that woman. Her Maureen is hilarious, and so fucking sexy.

And Renee Elise Goldsberry blew me away with the intensity of her performance. She was crying in three of her songs that I could see, and yet it didn't affect her singing at all. She's amazing. (the fact that she's insanely beautiful doesn't hurt).

Roger and Mark left me cold. But then they always do. They're two boring straight, white dudes who basically spend the play whining about how crap their lives are, while the rest of the diverse and multi-faceted cast get on with living their lives and finding happiness.

I still wish I could have seen the original cast perform it, back when they were all young and shiny and new. Anyone want to lend me a time machine for the weekend? But what I did get to see was pretty great.

Now I want to listen to the original cast recording again. Must track that down from somewhere ...

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I'm sad about RENT closing. I'm so sad I never got to see it at the Nederlander, the theatre that Jonathon Larson chose and that the OBC performed in.

I know it will be revived. I know it will probably come to Australia again some day. But it won't be the same.

Why couldn't they have waited just one more year, until I would have been financially solvent and able to travel halfway across the world to see it? One more year, when it's been running for twelve? How rude.

I'm watching Eden and Megan's last For Good together on Broadway. It is the sweetest thing I have ever seen. The fact that they're both choking back tears the ENTIRE SONG but still manage to perform beautifully. I fuckin love Eden Espinosa. There are so many videos I watch and think this is my favourite of hers, and then I discover a new one, and think the same thing, and then another.

I need to get writing. I wish life didn't take up so much energy. I wish I had more time and energy for writing.

Megan Hilty reminds me of Natalie Maines. Not that there's anything wrong with that: they're both extremely talented and both really beautiful. i'm just sayin.

I've never finished a multi-part fic before - I usually get bored and drift on to something else halfway through. This is tiring. And all consuming. I find myself wondering how Idina would react to a certain situation, or what Kristin's favourite childhood memory is, in the middle of classes and work shifts.

Finished the first draft of part 5, hopefully will be beta-ed and posted pretty soon. Then, I have a few more chapter planned out so they shouldn't take too long to write.